Back when I raided heavily in WoW (Late Vanilla/Early TBC era), I was going through one of the most difficult times of my life. It is difficult to fully explain how or why these things happened, but ultimately it was a time of depression and anger. My only joy at the time was WoW, and the company of those I'd met through the game. At times, I find myself reminiscing about those dark times, and I remember how supportive we were of eachother, even if we were always shit-talking and roffling at dumb shit.
In particular, I knew this girl who, like myself, played a priest. I don't recall giving her any special attention. She was a good priest, knew how to heal well, and I enjoyed bringing her to our raids (I was an officer and later GM of the guild we raided in). She was a sweet girl, and always said things that, no matter how I was feeling at the time, gave me some sense of hope. It was her compassionate attitude that struck a chord with me, one that had been ignored, abused, crippled, and whatever other emo crap that can be applied.
When I first was living on my own, confused, screwed up, lonely, or w/e, she would tell me things that made me feel better about myself. I didn't fully realize this at the time, but it's funny how you begin to reflect on these things some years down the road.
When my best friend committed suicide, I happened to tell her about it, and she communicated to me a level of empathy that would not have been possible via friends and family. This is a girl I have not even met...
This girl, without even knowing me, knew who I was. It was as though she sensed something in me that I did not see, and was able to help. I've never known someone like this since, and I may never again know someone like this again, but one thing I can say is that if she hadn't of been there for me, when noone else was, I wouldn't be here to talk about it.
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